Help me..im not perfect?

ive established a relashionship with a girl on the internet from hamilton, canada for two years now.......i met her in warez chat, and since have been speaking to her in msn messenger..shes seen me on webcam, ive seen her to on the cam....but just recentley ive hit a real low with my mental health problems..and with the low moods and bleak thoughts...i have a very very very very low self opinion of myself. low self confidence...i have alot of insecurities about my life. where i live: in a small 1 bedroom flat with not much possessions: the fact that : ive never worked or developed friendships or relashionships because of the problems ive had for so long: the fact that: im on sickness benefits at the age of 29: my appearence, the fact that: i hate myself the way i look, i have 2 bottom. front missing teeth. my face is ageing rapidly..: the fact that: i wish i was somebody else, living a completley different life than how i exist today:> i have the feeling with my low moods of the bottom