Christian siblings can you help me understand?

why are other Christian church members would want to be my friend when I am so uninteresting and such a boring loser? I have become distant from God and others in general. Are they just being kind to me because our Father says so? Tell me the truth, it couldn't be for who I am because I am such a worthless individual. I mess up everything and all relationships. I can't get close to others. I don't want to become attached.